I’m not the kind of person who is always pleasant, smiling, ever friendly and saintly with a halo on her head. Nope, if you’re looking for someone like that, you’re not talking to the right person.
That doesn’t mean that I’m bad, that I don’t smile and that I couldn’t be warm. I am warm and sympathetic most of the time, and I have a good smile that could really brighten up your day. But what I’m saying is that I’m not always like that. There are times when I get upset, when I cry, when I get frustrated and sick and angry for things I couldn’t understand.
Times like that come, times such as today. Today is not my day, I feel terrible, even miserable that I wanted to go home and just hide inside my cave. I don’t know, I must have exhausted my energy. I must have had too much. I need to rest and get recharged. I just need to vent out all of these negative energies.
There are certain things we don’t want, things we detest, and I guess there’s nothing wrong with acknowledging our feelings about them. Whenever we recognize the things we don’t want, we get a clearer vision of the things we truly want in our life. In a certain way, we let go of the façade of being happy where we are not happy.
I’m sorry to those who expect an inspirational post for today, but sometimes, I just want to be truthful rather than play the saint that I am not. Thanks for dropping by. There will be a better day.
The thing about hope is that it’s a positive force that shines the most when it’s dark. When everything’s going well, we hardly notice it’s there. But when things go against us, when our dreams fade and when we see no immediate reprieve from our troubles, that’s when hope does its best work for us.
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6 replies on “Not Always Pleasant! Hmp”
Hi Jocelyn
Great to have such honesty. Not everyone (well, perhaps I should say not every normal person) can be happy and smiley all of the time. It’s good to realise that. Then we can accept the down moods – and allow them.
Juliet
Thank you very much for dropping by, Juliet! It really helps to know somebody’s there, makes me feel better.
Jocelyn, thanks for sharing this. I am no saint either. Just yesterday I was in a terrible mood because someone kept me waiting half an hour and didn’t have the courtesy to inform me in advance that she would be late. I was so angry I decided it was best not to speak to her at all when she turned up, lest I say something rude. It ruined my night because I didn’t feel like being pleasant to anybody after that. That was a bad day. And we all have these. It’s okay. As you say, tomorrow will be better!
Thanks for sharing your experience too, Daphne. I really hate it when someone doesn’t respect your time and then act as though they didn’t do anything wrong. I hope you’re having a better day today though.
nice touch Jocelyn.. this is what I am thinking about today. sometimes things will go far from what we expected.
but at the end of the day, we just need to be true to ourselves
That’s true, Mickay. The more we evade reality, the worse the problem becomes. What we can do is to accept that we became irritated by those things, and at the same time, we accept that things could still be better at another time.