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A Broken Heart’s Prayer

a broken heart's prayer 2012A Broken Heart’s Prayer

Dear Lord, how could he have done this to me? How could he forget his promises? How could he throw away in a moment all the things we have built all these years? How could he break my heart? Was it my fault? Was it me Lord? Tell me where I have gone wrong. Show me my sins, flash them before me so I may know. For I do not understand how all these things can be happening right now. I do not understand how something so good can suddenly end up the way it is today. We were so happy, Lord. We were so in love we have not a care in the world. It was just him and me, the two of us, and it was enough, probably more than enough. He was your gift to me, and I to him. We complement each other, we share so many things in common, it is to him that I opened up my heart. It is he Lord whom I trusted with all my heart.

How then can he break it so? How can he betray our love? How can he suddenly say he doesn’t love me anymore? It seemed not so long ago when we would simply walk hand in hand along the beach, when we would share a slice of pizza and be satisfied just the same, when we would gaze at the evening sky and count the stars, content of what we had, certain that it would last forever like the millions of stars in the sky. I believed in forever. Now I don’t know anymore. I know nothing anymore. Can love be lost in an instant? Can true love really just fade away? I am so broken deep within me Lord I do not know if I can still piece together every shattered part of me.

My friends say that it will heal in time. They say I should busy myself with this and that, date with this guy and that guy. But I don’t know Lord. Are these the things that can make me believe in love once again? Are these the things that can relieve this pain I feel in my heart? I am not only hurting, Lord. I feel so angry that I couldn’t do anything to avenge myself for this kind of suffering I do not deserve. Do I not deserve true love Lord? Do I not deserve loyalty, sincerity and respect? He makes me feel so bad, Lord. He makes me feel so bad about myself. I built my whole world around him, and he took it all away. I built my self esteem upon his admiration, and he trampled upon it as though it were trash. How can he not feel guilty for what he has done? How can he suddenly be so happy now in the arms of another woman? How can I ever build my world again? How can I ever be happy once more?

Please help me Lord, I really don’t know what to do. Only your words can comfort me. Only your embrace can soothe my pain. I have given everything I could my Lord, and there is nothing more I can give. I kneel before you now, crushed and broken, empty and afraid to be alone. Hide me under your wings, hold me in your loving arms. Say unto me again how much you love me. Say unto me that you have called me yours and you will never ever let me go. Though men may fail, you remain faithful, steadfast and immovable as a rock. Though men may judge me for all the faults they see in me, you see my heart and reveal to me the beautiful soul you see in me. Help me to let go of my pain, teach me to forgive those who do not even ask my forgiveness. This burden is something I shouldn’t carry in my heart. This trouble is not something I should trade away my peace for. I know that I have been done wrong, the things that have happened had been so unfair. Sometimes life’s like that. Many things in this life really seem so unfair. But let me not continue being unfair to myself. Let me not punish myself anymore for the things others have done.

I offer unto you my wounded heart, my broken heart. I know it is you my Lord who will uphold me in the end. Let me not lose hope. Let me not cast away everything that’s good and beautiful in this life. I know that there is so much more in store for me. I know how much love I can still give away because it is you who fills me with everything that I’ll ever need. You are the one who loves me truly, eternally, unconditionally. You are the one who has always been there for me and always will be there for me. You are my one true love. You are my forever. You are my strength and my peace and my joy. Surely in your presence Lord, I do not need anything more.

A BROKEN HEART’S PRAYER was taken from the Book MEND MY BROKEN HEART.  You can download a free sample from the book by clicking the LINK below:

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Healing Heaven On Earth

A Little Piece of Heaven

This is a sad time and a sad generation. Although there is no world war, although the technology to live a comfortable life has never been as advanced, although we can now reach one another in a click of a button; all the good things we possess can’t seem to cast away the dark clouds that hang everywhere, obscuring the azure sky, blocking the warmth of our bright and faithful sun.

Stripped of its radiance, we walk on cold pavements each day, flaunting the calloused hearts that hold back our tears, wandering the streets hurriedly, as though we knew where we should be going. The truth however is that we walk naked, pretending we are strong, numbing our hearts and killing our souls, just so we can get by, just so we’d be the people our twisted society wants us to transform into.

Rich and poor alike are dying within, the humanity of their souls being sucked away either by the necessity of their survival or by their meaningless ambitions. Where then can we find that little piece of heaven, that small flame of hope that would keep us from stumbling in the dark?

I urge you to look more closely, for it is there, streaking through the thick fog, making its way through the darkness.

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Prayers

A Prayer of Hope for the Economy

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Father God, times are hard they say

Many people will lose their jobs.

No one can tell how long this crisis shall last.

No assurance can be given

to all who grope in the dark.

But I believe, dear Father

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Prayers

Prayer of an Overseas Worker

prayer of an overseas workerFather God, it’s so lonely out here. Many times I’ve asked myself why I had to go here in the first place, and why I can’t go back yet to where my heart truly is, where my true happiness resides. Why must I walk these streets alone? Why must I eat this bread without my family?

Many sights have so amazed me since I got here and yet no beauty has ever succeeded in wiping away the tears from my eyes. For without my loved ones, what can all these things mean to me? I’d rather be blind, I’d rather tire myself to sleep so I won’t have time to remember, to cry, to long so painfully for the people I love so much.

Help me O God. Give me strength to bear such a terrible longing. Give me hope so that the vision of your blessings for my loved ones always be before me. Give me faith so I can cling on that hope on my darkest and loneliest days. Let me never forget the reason why I came here for. Let me never forget who I am and to whom I really belong. Save me from my weaknesses and snatch me away from the many temptations that lurk along the way.

I have not come here for my own sake. I have not come here for defeat. I came here for my beloved ones. I came here to make a sacrifice. And I came here to be victorious though you Most Holy Name! Guide me O Lord each step of the way, protect me from all dangers that I may come home safely, full of your wonderful blessings and overflowing with gratitude for all that you have done for me and my family. Amen!

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Healing relationships

How Do You Deal With Emotional Pain?

how do you deal with emotional pain 2012

How Do You Deal With Emotional Pain?

Yes, I understand why things had to happen this way. I understand the reason for this pain. But mere understanding does not chase away the hurt. It does not call upon the sun when dark clouds have loomed over me. Let the rain come then if it must come! And let it wash away the dust that hurt my eyes!

There are times when life suddenly casts a shadow upon us: we suffer for sins we did not even commit, we go through situations we certainly do not deserve. In such times, we have so many questions throbbing at the back of our minds, but the biggest of them all is “WHY?”

We want to know the reason why we had to go through such excruciating pain. We want to know why we were not able to do anything to prevent them. We want to know why God failed us, why He let us down when we needed Him most.

Yet even after we were able to answer these questions, the pain remains, life stands still, and we can do nothing but wait ’til everything’s over, until we can move on again like we used to, when our hearts were not yet bruised and broken. We then come into answering our second biggest question, and that is “HOW?”

How do we deal with the awful feeling of brokenness? How do we start to move on? How on earth are we ever going to smile again?

Like many people, I’ve been through dark and painful moments in my life as well, moments I wanted to skip, moments when what I wanted the most was to have a time machine so I could either go back in time when I was happy, or fast forward anywhere in the future when I can find myself whole again.

But no machine like that has ever been invented yet, and the only way to move from the terrible place where I stood was to go through the dark tunnel ahead with the firm hope of finding a better place on the other side.

If you’re willing to go through that dark tunnel with me, let us begin. Let us try to answer the only question that can lead us to a better place. How indeed can we ever deal with our grief?

1. Accept the challenge and do my best.

We can never move on anywhere unless we acknowledge where we stand at the moment. Acceptance is the shortest route to peace. Acceptance will help you let go of your “whys” so you can start focusing on your “hows”.

Accept that things have already happened. Accept that you can do nothing to turn back the hands of time to undo everything that’s already been done. You can blame everyone, you can blame God, you can even blame yourself but that would never change your situation. That would never help you get out of the pit that you’re in, the suffering you’re going through.

Find the way to acceptance, and you can begin to find the strength and the will to move on.

2. Rest when I can no longer carry on.

It is a good thing to cry and mourn for your sorrows. It is good to release your tears, your anger, your pent-up emotions. But there are limits to our powers, to our physical and emotional strength as human beings.

We need enough time to rest to renew our strength, so we can have a better cry next time. Have enough sleep. Force yourself to watch television or buy groceries and give yourself a break. Try to forget your troubles even if only for an hour or so. That way, you do not exhaust yourself to the point when you no longer have enough strength to face the challenges of the coming day. Reserve some of your strength until you can make it through.

3. Take comfort in a friend’s love and strength.

Those who knew the torment of pain and have survived from it understand the comfort of knowing someone is there listening to you, someone who understands you and all those hurts you’re going through. Someone who doesn’t judge you or condemn you, just someone who loves you and trusts you.

Some people may find this comfort in a family or a trusted friend. In my case, I have also found it in God. It may be quite ironic, but I have found my greatest joy in the arms of my God in my darkest hour.

I felt him hugging me, comforting me, crying with me. He didn’t just watch me. He didn’t scold me to get up and be strong and stop being such a fool. He cried with me. He knew my pain and he claimed it as though it were His own.

For those who do not share the same belief, you may instead seek a loved one who can give you their warm presence. If you can find such a person who can console you, this is the time to receive his or her care.

4. Bear the pain and be patient.

This seems to be the hardest part of all. Pain is pain and suffering is suffering. There is no pill or any kind of painkiller that we can take to prevent us from feeling our hurts. We have to bear it head-on and cling to the thought that things will change for the better.

I have deep sorrow today and an unclear vision of the future. But nobody ever died of loneliness — only of hopelessness! As long as I have hope, no problem is ever too difficult, no night so dark that it can prevent the rising of another day!

There are times when we are so lost in the dark that no matter how hard we try to find our way, we can’t find the roads we’re looking for; no matter how desperately we seek, we can’t grasp the answers, and we continue to grope in the dark.

Take heart, however; stand firm and strong, for it will not be long. The night is short and the voices will soon fade away. Darkness shall falter and surrender to a brand new day.

5. When it is time, stop dwelling on the pain

There are times when the pain finally subsides, and we are given a chance to move on a notch higher. Finally, we have the chance to break free from our pain.

The problem, however, is that many of us choose to cling to our hurts. We let the pain linger longer than they should. Maybe we got so used to it, we don’t know anymore what we’re going to do without it. Maybe we feel mad at ourselves and we choose to punish ourselves for the things we thought we did wrong. Maybe we’re mad at someone else and we want to punish him by punishing ourselves.

Whatever it is, it will not help you find your path to living the full life you should be living. Let it go. Let go of your pain and move on.

6. Live from day to day. Or if that is too long, from moment to moment.

Some wounds take a longer time to heal than others, and some hurts take a while longer to subside. The important thing is that we stay afloat one day, one moment at a time.

Don’t think of how hard the whole process is going to be. Don’t think of all the lonely days ahead of you. They haven’t even arrived yet! Just think of the moment. If you can live and make it for the moment, that is all that is needed to make it through.

7. Learn everything I can from the process.

When we’re in pain, we seldom realize what lessons we can learn from the process. Though it is quite understandable why we do not give attention to things like that in times of grief, the truth remains that we do learn many things during our darkest hour.

It is a time when all the lessons we have ever learned are being challenged in an instant. It is a time when we come to realize what we value the most in life. It is a time when we get to understand other people better. Let us take advantage of those times when we see things more clearly than we ever saw them before.

8. Protect my joy at all times.

This may not be an easy thing to process, but I believe that joy and sorrow can exist at the same time.

Yes, we are hurt. Yes, we’re broken. But yes, we know we’re going to make it. And yes, we know we’ll get out of it better persons than we used to be. Somewhere in our hearts, there is a chamber of joy that should remain intact, untouched, forever guiding us in our most troublesome paths.

It is indeed a painful thing to grow, but afterward, you will be glad that you have undergone the process. You will feel stronger. You will feel like you have just been released from your self-made prison.

You will carry the warmth of those who have loved you and comforted you in your darkest hour. You will have greater confidence as you learn more about your true beauty and strength. And you will move forward in life with greater strides knowing that the things which have caused you pain could no longer touch you and torment you the way they did before.