May you never fail to see how beautiful you are in God’s own eyes.
Keep me as the apple of your eye.
Hide me under the shadow of your wings…
-Psalms 17, WEBBE
I often fall in my walk towards holiness when I start to look at myself. Either I’m filled with pride and self-righteousness for doing good or I feel depressed at my sinfulness. And I’ve realized how we’re not really meant to look at or judge ourselves. Even when it comes to a physical walk, who wouldn’t fall if one keeps on looking at oneself instead of looking where one is going?
It’s the same with our spiritual walk. If ever I do need to look at myself, it must be through God’s eyes. Only as I look through Him can I see an image of me that is true. Only as I look through Him who is both just and merciful can I see my sinfulness without falling into despair, or know my progress without succumbing to pride. Looking through His eyes, I see more of Him and less of me, more of His care and less of my worries, more of His strength and less of my weaknesses, more of His love and less of my fears. I can move forward as long as I look towards Him who leads me. My eyes were meant not to remain in the darkness where I am, but to seek and to find His light.